Shiva
‘Fire: its grace is not to remember,’ he said, under the
dim light of the single electric bulb. I felt glacial; sarcastic: come
on baby, ice my blizzard, I thought. I was praying for her. Sometimes
she seemed unfurled before me – and at other times closed off, fox-like
in her cunning not to be ensnared. When we begin to make the move, the
connection, fiery passions can be so easily dowsed.
‘Imagine
what fire has done for us,’ I said to him, eager to pin him back. ‘It
destroyed one third of London in the seventeenth century: we’ve gone
from rubbing two sticks together to the ends of the Earth. It’s creator
but destroyer – and there’s a bad smell in the atmosphere; the smoke
lingering around our fingers.’
He said he could see a time of
order ahead: the sea ice would stabilise – we can be free to emerge and
progress with impunity. ‘We can turn the heat up.’ His rhetoric filled
me with indifference. Today fire in my glass means a fall from grace. He
says: ‘Keep free, remember anguish, and raise a glass to those who
fell.’ I thought, just give me my marshmallows, guy.
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